Are you waiting until you feel ‘better’or when it’s the ‘right time’?
You might be waiting forever
Go live your life
Do it sad
Do it anxious/nervous
Do it uncertain
Because healing doesn’t always come before the experience.
Sometimes the experience is what heals you.
This statement, I have found, rings true.
You may or may not have viewed my socials where I shared my 4 month journey, rehearsing and getting prepped to perform in my very first musical theatre production – Joseph & his Technicolour Dreamcoat. Thought I’d share here – to the best I can articulate as it was incredibly healing for me in so many ways.
Overcoming my fear when my son asked me to audition, jumping in and dedicating 4 months every Thursday night and Saturday along with a few extra days a week for polishing performances.
It was literally – Blood, sweat, tears, joy and profound healing.
Blood – I sustained an injury on our preview night (right before opening night) where I clipped an artery, running into a door handle backstage. Sure, there was physical healing to be done, but the pain of the thought of not being in the 12 shows was heartbreaking – devastating.. Fortunately, I had a very speedy recovery & I believe it was due to the overwhelming support & love from the cast & crew and just being a part of the high vibe energy. If we dwell on what is, then we fall into victim mode. I was there – but only briefly.
Sweat: Oh my, did I sweat – I lost 5kgs due to the intensity of dancing, the movements in choreography, some which I thought I’d never be doing at 59! in the QLD heat, with layers of clothing, under lights and trying to sing in tune & in harmony was something else!
I unexpectedly increased my fitness & noticeably my lung/voice capacity!
Tears: of joy – being in this new environment – a completely new world to me, which was so mesmerising, captivating and being alongside some spectacular talent of all ages, left my being tingling. Tears of joy by receiving some of the kindest messages & support from my stage family has made lasting impact.
Tears of grief – post show blues are real. The people. Being on stage with my son. The connections. The time, energy & effort we put in, under incredible guidance and direction, creating magic together was remarkable & memorable.
Tears for a beautiful chapter that closed as all must do and gratitude for the magic & healing experience I gave to myself.
Tears of laughter n joy – 30 people, all walks of life young n old meant some very very funny, bizarre & hysterical moments.
My new found love: yes. Musical theatre. A new perspective from the other side. Behind the curtain. In the wings. The excitement. Nerves. The theatre lingo. The dance, music, the costumes! The people.. Everything that creates such a production.
Wow! I had no idea.
I’ve learnt so much.
I never knew how healing this whole process would be. I can share the healing another time.
I never knew how much I needed this experience.
Don’t wait.
Move through the fear
Go Live
I hope this brought some inspiration to you.